Lala

Thursday, September 4, 2008

You have no HEART </3

I rather prefer another guy to you. He's the one who brightens up my day. He's always reading my Personal Message in Msn and advices me. Did you ever in your life do that to ME? Tell me. You just know how to use girls but you don't know how to take care of them. You don't know how to care for the girl; be faithful to her; to love her. You are just not worth it for me. You said, "You don't deserve a guy like me!" Yea right. Go and Die. Please, are you sure? The truth is, YOU don't deserve a girl like ME! Geddit? Stop being a jerk. Your friend and you just don't deserve girls like US. The truth, Guys like you don't deserve any girls. Get that right! Bastards! Can't you guys just die! You guys are just insulting MAN's name. And for MR SUNNY BOI, tell me the truth! Aren't you on with that SUMATHI fhucker?! Tell me the truth. She's a BITCH! You people are up to something and I know it. I'm the scapegoat here. I just hate being with you. I just can't tell you how I feel. You're using me. You haven see the worst of me and I know soon you will. I just wish, IMRAN will be mine. Don't think I'm a flirt kays?! Look, he's girl somewhat made use of him. And he was somewhat in my situation. He's a much better guy than you and you know it! He is the MAN! You have no guts to come down when he called you to come and talk. You're just scared and you have the face to lie to people! I just hate how much I love you. I wish I could develop the same feelings for Imran. I just wish he would too. I'm sick of your lies! That's all sucker! I'm waiting for the day, this will end. I'll try my best to have feelings for HIM. I'm some kind already having. So what you need to do is: FUCK OFF!

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Staying away from love and you;

Boyy, you can never understand me. The way I feel; the way I think; the way I cry; You will never understand the LOVE I'm having for you. Guys don't lose anything but girls are the one losing everything. You and I did deep stuffs which I can never forget. I'm a girl. I was the one who was enduring the stuffs you did. Not YOU. Get thatt right! Don't judge me, just like that. I ain't your pushover. You always hurt me and say sorry. But you don't mean that sorry. Sorrows in my soul. My family is getting worried about me. I know I need to change. But, remember one thing, I'm NOT changing for YOU! My parents LOVE me. My siblings LOVE me. My grandparents CHERISH me so much. But i'm here, CRAVING for your LOVE?! WTF?! I don't know why, but their LOVE seems nothing to me like your LOVE seems to me. Its so irritating to know that after all you have done to me, I still LOVE you. I just HATE how much I LOVE you. My family comes first, then friends. THIS is how I want it to be. For whatever stuffs you do which causes me to lose myself, my FRIENDS are taking the blame for what they didn't do. Stupid huh? What did they do to take YOUR bloody fucking BLAME for YOUR damn fucking SINS! I just want to stay away from you. Its time for me to move on. Its time for me to go back to my OLD self. The "bubbly" FARHANA that My family used to know. The CHEERFUL girl that my friends used to know. I don't want to cry over you, but I always do. I will try to change. I will try not to EMO. I will TRY not to GIVE UP. Its me NOW. Its up to ME. And don't JUDGE me.